I know I always run from everything I love
It's 'cause I feel like I won't ever be enough
Maybe that's why I been pushin' you away
I wanna see if I matter enough for you to stay

I know it's selfish and it's not the way that it should be
But I just like to know that someone's out there missin' me
All my exes will tell you there ain't no fixing me
And that I'll become somebody that you wish you didn't meet

The love we have, I know you wish it dead
But you don't know how to kill it, so it lives instead
I have ways of getting in your head
So it doesn't matter what I do 'causе you'll forgive me in the еnd
But I'm trying to change and it's kind of strange
But I hope you still around when I find my way
And you're gonna see, it won't be suddenly
But I've been trying day and night, and that's enough for me

But I'm trying to change and it's kind of strange
But I hope you still around when I find my way
And you're gonna see, it won't be suddenly
But I've been trying day and night, and that's enough for me

I just want to let you know I cried tonight
Like: How have I been like this my entire life?
But if you grew up with my dad, then you would try to run
Crazy because he's the one I've been trying to not become

How the fuck did I become my parents
I look back at the shit I did to you and I'm embarrassed
But it's something that growing up I witnessed on the daily
So now it doesn't phase me, 'cause I thought it was normal to be crazy

I'm sorry for what I did that night
I'm even more sorry it took this long to know that that shit isn't right
'Cause you and I were bound to marry
I gotta let go of my past, that's something I don't know how to bury

But I'm trying to change and it's kind of strange
But I hope you still around when I find my way
And you're gonna see, it won't be suddenly
But I've been trying day and night, and that's enough for me
But I'm trying to change and it's kind of strange
But I hope you still around when I find my way
And you're gonna see, it won't be suddenly
But I've been trying day and night, and that's enough for me