waking up screaming by nightmares that haunts me
darkness surrounds me and fills up my soul
people say i'm dumb
but i just feel numb
'cause the madness that fills me
just can't let me be

searching the power to resist
cutting wounds in my wrist
pain in my flesh sets me free
from the pain that isn't me
pain in
pain out

cutting myself
in rage of my mind
misery and blame
is exceeding the pain
yes I feel the pain
but it´s a pain that I can recognize

feeling life

abhorent strife

a single drop of blood
is pouring from a vein
a wish that it will take
away from me this pain
´cause no one understands
this pain in my soul

God´s grace is all you need