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[Verse 1]
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I am feeling embarrassed
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I let the moonlight get the best of me
 C
I swear I was doing better
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Right now I'm just drunker than I meant to be
      C
Snow swallows up the Puget sound beneath
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My feet six stories down
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Beneath blueberry wine and blunts telling myself

[Break]
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[Verse 2]
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I'll wake up from this nightmare, roll over to find
                         C                     F
Your soft freckled shoulders right there next to mine
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I can't help feeling bitter
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I can't help feeling left behind
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I don't give a shit
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I'm not embarrassed I'm just
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Falling apart on the back porch of the house
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That I used to live in

[Break]
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[Chorus]
          C        G                 F     C  G       F
And I don't know if it's the hot knives or the dissociation
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Could I still drive this car all night and
             C      G          F
Crawl in bed with you in Oakland?
         Dm
I can't remember how it happened
          C       G       F
I got to used to isolation
          C        G            F
Now I still talk to you at night to
          C         G           F
See you smile and feel you listen

[Break]
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[Verse 3]
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And I can feel your fingers through the
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Burn holes in my sweatshirt
C
I wind up smoked out in your bedroom
       Dm
Every time that I get hurt
C
You pull my hair and I get scared
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I steal your favorite sweatshirt
C
And wear it when I miss you
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Months after you're gone

[Break]
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[Chorus]
          C        G                 F     C  G       F
And I don't know if it's the hot knives or the dissociation
             C     G                 F
Could I still drive this car all night and
             C      G          F
Crawl in bed with you in Oakland?
         Dm
I can't remember how it happened
          C       G       F
I got to used to isolation
          C        G            F
Now I still talk to you at night to
          C         G           F
See you smile and feel you listen


[Verse 4]
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And I can feel your fingers through the
F
Burn holes in my sweatshirt
C
While we make out in the bathroom of a house
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I've never been before
C
When I black out we're holding hands and
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Laughing in your kitchen
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I still struggle to feel stable months after you're gone.