I never saw
I never felt
I never said
Because I was nobody else

I never had the chance
I never had the permission
I don't know what to say about it
Because I was sttopped against my will
I didn't wish this situation

It's so sad to feel like this
There were not doors to breakout from this way
There was nobody to call

I dreamed of being someone else
This dream was utopia
I had so many illusions
But now everything has been destroyed

My illusions seemed to be perfect
I wasn't prepared for the fall
This reality shock was strong
Never thought I'd be torn apart

I wish my illusions were real

I was so connected to people outside
I ended up forgetting myself

I thought the world could be mine
But there are racist molds that I don't fit into

I really thought I would be accepted
But I wasted so much time believing in people

Now I don't believe in anyone, anymore
I only believe in myself

I don't want to waste my time with foolish illusions

I only want good things that are important to me

I don't want to live on illusions
I want to live in real happiness

I saw the bad side of the world
I am sensitive to rudeness

I don't want illusions ever again