I can feel the decay
This disease pulling me apart
In every direction
Wishing I can speak
Instead I just disregard
Suffocate me - set me free
Inside I am so weak
Attending to wounds
That nobody sees - screaming internally

Lack of sleep, loss of cartilage in my knees
Afraid to worry those around me
And add insult to injury
Apathy and aggression
Bogged down by despondency
Co dependent to cynicism
Caused by these discrepancies

I'll dance around the subject
To avoid killing the mood
Numb myself like I did before
With what I can
And say it's not so bad

I'll dance around the subject
To avoid killing the mood
Numb myself like I did before
With what I can
And say it's not so bad

I can feel myself wither
My body's on a short leash
Swelled lungs and blood shot eyes
I'm begging just to breathe
Sick of the medication
My life's tied to a machine
And I can say that I'm not lonely
But loneliness is killing me

I can feel myself wither
My body's on a short leash
Swelled lungs and blood shot eyes
I'm begging just to breathe
Sick of the medication
My life's tied to a machine
And I can say that I'm not lonely
But loneliness is killing me