Find myself kissing the sidewalk
Brown water and xanny together
Just trying to turn my mind off
Fool I was thinking today would be better

Feeling I'm getting
Personal heaven
Craving I've had since I was eleven
Brain interference
That's draining my spirit
I know it's bad for me I don't wanna hear it

All alone
No way home
Bloody nose
From my snow
All my friends
Left me for dead
I find myself here again here again

Why can't I get high
Without wanting to die
Without wanting to die
Why can't I get high
Without wanting to die
Without wanting to die

Told myself I'd find a limit
Honest-to-God I'd be done with my sinning
Two pills before I forget it
Walls closing in and the ceiling is spinning
Brain going manic
I start to panic

This night's not going away that I planned it
Oxygen's thinning
Tires are skidding
This is all my fault man who am I kidding

Close my eyes
Say good bye
Let me be
Let me die
Mom and dad
Don't be sad

Really it's not so bad not so bad
Why can't I get high
Without wanting to die
Without wanting to die
Why can't I get high
Without wanting to die
Without wanting to die