I'm tellin' you now

I don't care if it's a race, I'ma set my own pace, on my mark
Ready, set, go
I'm ashamed that I used to shift the blame when I hadn't done my part
Like say it ain't so
Barely even took the time to just stop and use my mind or try hard
That was before
But now I figure, why not start?
I figure why not start? Ayy

The biggest smile on my face when I'm around
You can't really tell that I'm hurtin'
Really do my best when out in public, keep my head from tiltin' down
But deep inside, I feel like a burden
Everybody steady in my ear sayin' I should keep goin'
Not realizin' that my hеart is torn
Some days I wake up excitеd 'cause I know exactly what I'm doin'
Other days, I still wish I wasn't born, mhmm
But it's cool 'cause I've dealt with the pain
If I wasn't so solid, then I would melt in the rain
And the cycles I was in, ain't do nothin' but just keep on repeatin'
So I felt insane

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And I held tight to my selfish ways
Wouldn't seek help 'cause I would self-medicate
But when you look at me, just know it's never too late
That's why I'm tellin' you now

I don't care if it's a race, I'ma set my own pace, on my mark
Ready, set, go
I'm ashamed that I used to shift the blame when I hadn't done my part
Like say it ain't so
Barely even took the time to just stop and use my mind or try hard
That was before
But now I figure, why not start?
I figure why not start? Ayy

Safe to say I found my rhythm
Don't you dare feel sorry for me, I am not a victim
We got problems and we fix 'em
It's just for me, music navigates the pain out my system
Beatin' the odds, I love that
If I ain't learnin' my lessons, then I mustn't have had enough yet
And lord knows I can't be upset
'Cause every single time somebody tries to help, I change the subject
Forced myself to goin' alone
I'm surprised I haven't broke any bones
Take it easy, they don't even need to see me like this
I hid myself at home

And I held tight to my selfish ways
Wouldn't seek help 'cause I would self-medicate
But when you look at me, just know it's never too late
That's why I'm tellin' you now

I don't care if it's a race, I'ma set my own pace, on my mark
Ready, set, go
I'm ashamed that I used to shift the blame when I hadn't done my part
Like say it ain't so
Barely even took the time to just stop and use my mind or try hard
That was before
But now I figure, why not start?
I figure why not start? I'm tellin' you now
I don't care if it's a race, I'ma set my own pace, on my mark
Ready, set, go
I'm ashamed that I used to shift the blame when I hadn't done my part
Like say it ain't so
Barely even took the time to just stop and use my mind or try hard
That was before
But now I figure, why not start?
I figure why not start? Ayy

I don't care if it's a race, I'ma set my own pace, on my mark
Ready, set, go
I'm ashamed that I used to shift the blame when I hadn't done my part
Say it ain't so
Barely even took the time to just stop and use my mind or try hard
That was before
Now I figure, why not start?
I figure why not start? I'm tellin' you now