I've been so frustrated with myself
I feel my trust fading
It's not enough lately
I think I'm ignoring my own health
I miss all the warnings
It just gets so boring when I'm not indulging my senses
Every single second
Pleasure is cheap but it sure is expensive
Where is the strength I need to change for good?

'Cause I can't retreat to the way I used to be
The way I used to see myself versus everyone else
There's still more of who I was before
And I'm afraid that I'm not gonna make any progress at all

The bedroom packed with gifts I never gave
And the weight gained
And the chest pain bleed into my days
I'm so easily stained
That I can see the seeds grow into leaves
And still not believe this is worth it
It's growing and working
That I am so much better than the way I was before
Wash me clean
So I can be brand new

'Cause I can't retreat to the way I used to be
The way I used to see myself versus everyone else
There's still more of who I was before
And I'm afraid that I'm not gonna make any progress at all

I'm afraid that I'm not gonna make any progress
At all
At all

Wash me clean
So I can be brand new
Wash me clean, oh-oh
So I can be brand new

'Cause I can't retreat to the way I used to be
The way I used to see myself versus everyone else
There's still more of who I was before
And I'm afraid that I'm not gonna make any progress

No, I can't retreat to the way I used to be
The way I used to see myself versus everyone else
There's still more of who I was before
And I'm afraid that I'm not gonna make any progress at all