When i become lost- no-one will ever find me again

I long to revel in the elusive rapture
Swallow the pain again. my tear streaked capture

Hold fast the longing,
Take the iron from out of my heart
Wash clean contaminated wounds, where tragic
Â'plans hit their mark'

Chorus
For i am the â'nihilistic'
I'm force laden â' a statistic
Self annihilistic
Negative, fusion energy
(i am nihilistic, forged from the sadistic,
Forever pessimistic, negative, fusion energy.)

Still sharp are the visions
(that) linger with consequence
For when a rose dies, it's thorns still remain
To pierce our own psyche, my chastising.
Wounds that seldom heal clean

Eyes lose all innocence, -
When only evil they have seen
I'm not what is seen in my reflection
Designed words i sing

Lost in my dark sour - corner of my mind
Where pained memories lie
And callous secrets sleep

In the stony soil (of my) broken heart, buried oh so deep
A reoccurring infection - your dark stain
Â'stain on my skin'