"I shall live as intended before i was mended

Tired of being against myself
Let’s have a look what this life has to offer
Let’s look with fresh eyes
I will be surprised!

I’d like to be curious in my encounters
Rather than seeking to repeat my past

Rather than defending myself with aggression
I admit that buttons pushed can make me break
From ice-cold isolation to a fluid substance
I have become becoming itself

I allow myself
And it hurts so much when I claim ownership over my actions
And when I need to become creative as there is no one to blame

It hurts so much when I become responsible for my choices
But it cuts me off
From an endless string of causes and effects

I shall live as intended
Before I was mended

I am now curious in my encounters
Rather than repeating my past
The clinging to any story is not an option
All that is dead will be released…
In the intense process of waking from this dream
To replace my cold, calculated reality
Amidst the desensitization, running from such pure love
I shall take probiotics

Probiotic
Waking from this dream
Probiotic
Can no longer deny the screams
Life is to be lived
Probiotic
There is something to give
Probiotic

I do not need to be predictable and dutiful towards the past

Start today to undeny the presence of your true nature
And let it unfold in all its pain and grace
Give birth to the myriads of expression
In which all the keys will be given

Just let it happen, and start today
To detach from your misery by letting dreams be expressed
The beauty you perceive is real and not to be judged
It is inseparable from you

No longer succumb to the onslaught of our senses
But rise with pride and speak out our names
The beauty you perceive is real and not to be judged
It is inseparable from you

Forever curse that non-existence!

We need reminders
Of that which is, by seeing more clearly that which is not
Manufactured by blinded men
Grasping from their vomiting despair

I shall live as intended
Before I was mended
You do what the fuck you want
But I’d love it if you join me

Probiotic!

Probiotic
Waking from this dream
Probiotic
Can no longer
Deny the screams
Life is to be lived
Probiotic
There is something to give
Probiotic