Guilty

I didn't know this was inside of me
But here I am a broken shell again
From picking pieces off the floor
I feel like I've been here before

I keep on living day by day
I'm losing all of my friends
I'm losing control again
I'm living desperately
I'm holding on to the past
Good memories never last

Why won't they last

Back and forth
Inside my head
You ran around
And built your walls too tall again
I tried to let myself back in
I made the same mistake of
Caring to begin
Take a look around

'Cause you can't seem to read the room too well
But that's okay 'cause I'll just tell you how it felt
To lose myself like everyone else
But I can't help but still just feeling guilty

I didn't know this was inside of me
But here I am a broken shell again
From picking pieces off the floor
I feel like I've been here before

Round and round when will this end
I hate this cycle built upon my discontent
I'm pushing past the hope I live without this mess
'Cause I can tell the damage done just can't be fixed

I fucked it up
Now I'm feeling stuck
And you hate my guts
But I get it
It's not black or white
But that's half the fight
And I get if you're just not with it
I'm holding on

To what I know is wrong
And it's always gone when I get it
I don't want to hurt no more
But I just can't help feeling