Cry for help

I feel the bad guy coming on...
I push him away but he's too strong...
I'm all alone in this fight to save myself...
It isn't going so well...

I can't wake up from this dream...
No one hears me silently scream...
But you can watch as I destroy myself...
And bid me farewell...

I hate that it's come down to this...
I hate the life that I have missed...
I hate that I no longer care...
I hate that I'm the only one who is aware...

I'm not okay...
(someone take this away)