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Now I've had OCD

I mean officially
             Bbmaj7
For 4 months at least
                F
And it's a shit disease

And my medicine
              Bbmaj7
Is still not helping  me
           F
I still cannot eat

I still cannot sleep
           Bbmaj7
I still cannot be
               F
I always feel on edge
                                   Bbmaj7
I always feel death creeping up my sleeves
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And I've probably had this illness for more than 10 years

But let's not think about that
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And everything I ever do triggers me to the point of panic

Let's not think about that
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Do you know how scary it is
                           Bbmaj7
To be afraid of things you cannot ever change?

Or do you not think about that
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Do you know how fucked up it is to not know what's real?
              N.C.
Or do you not think like that
               F
I still cannot feel

If my heart is skipping beats
           Bbmaj7
If that's even true
                    F
Like should I see a doctor or see my therapist?
            Bbmaj7
Is anything real?
                   F
The feelings I can get
                                           Bbmaj7
From shit inside my head is completely off the hook
                F
I hate this shitty life

I hate this shitty time
          Bbmaj7
I hate my OCD
         F
And this illness is chronic
                                    Bbmaj7
And will probably haunt me for the rest of my life

Let's not think about that
         F
And this illness is violent and makes me think I'm violent
Bbmaj7                                  Bb
Shit, but people get uncomfortable if I ever mention that
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It is not just cleaning

Or that I like it tidy
Bbmaj7
It is not a hobby

Or something exciting
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This illness is as horrible as horrifying gets
Bbmaj7
Feeling like a prisoner in your own fucking head
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Never really understanding
        Bbmaj7
What is me?

What is sickness?
   F
So I just give up and give in
                Bbmaj7
And accept that nothing ever changes

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